No limits

As of today I'm 8 weeks out from my show. 8 more weeks of dieting, cardio, trying to make the 8pm bedtime so that I can get out of bed by 3:45am for cardio, feeling tired, feeling sore, doubting and then trying to believe, believing and then starting to doubt...you get the picture. Yes, you read correctly. Bedtime is at 8pm. That way I can get up at 3:45 and be out of the door right around 4am. I've been opting to drive to the gym down the road for morning cardio instead of hopping on my home elliptical. I'm doing at least an hour in the morning and I'm at that stage where I can't stand to be on any one machine for too long. I need to move around. It keeps me from getting too bored and it also keeps my muscles from getting too accustomed to working in the same exact manner day in and day out.

I'm still slowly losing weight. Very slowly. 132lb today. Well, I peaked in my off season at 152lb so that is an improvement. But still, it doesn't seem like enough. I'm a bit worried about what my next program update will be. How much more cardio and how much less food. I read an excellent post in another blog today. The blogger wrote "nobody puts limits on me, not even me." I'm trying to keep that in mind. I'm also trying to remember to not let myself get annoyed, distracted, irritated by anything that really doesn't affect me. Like the annoying temp girl sitting next to me. I shouldn't let her presence (and loud, frantic typing) really affect me. I'm a work in progress on that one.

Today is my last lifting day and I train back. Have a measely 20 minutes of cardio left and then I get to go home and rest. Well, at least go home. Need to do laundry and am still working on getting settled in the new apartment. It's starting to feel like my home, which is a nice feeling. Tomorrow I'm going to sleep in for as long as the cat will allow, do cardio and then head to work around 4:30. My goal is to earn enough in tip money to completely pay for my chicago hotel room and I'm just over half-way there. Come on people, tip your bartender!

Ciao.